This might be a little odd so forgive me if it doesn’t resonate with anyone here. I had the unfortunate experience of cult abuse where some of those involved are interested in psychic phenomena or even just the idea of manipulating the perception of it. This made me turn completely away from any spiritual connection because it was impossible to overcome the extreme dissonance of being psychologically tortured to connect with a source that is supposed to be a refuge. No matter what you think god is, it should bring you peace inevitably.
So with this group, they almost want to penetrate the source of their own salvation despite themselves. In other words, instead of doing the hard work of looking inward, they harmed other people to get to god which pushes them further away. Maybe I just needed to say this as they tried to force me to tell others I was psychic. And oddly, through the severity of the grief imposed on me, I found my connection which humorously has nothing to offer them.
So to these people, trying to manipulate this kind of barrier isn’t going to work. And, if there is no god, by chance, just a supreme self awareness, then I have simply conquered you by seeing things as they are. So by realizing even without a god, that I am the same as anyone else, that my kids are the same as other people’s kids, it is worth it to speak out against you and suffer the consequences . If there is a god, you never stood a chance anyway even in my destruction. I just needed to say this. No response is needed.