First hello, my name is Heather. I found my way into the Ram Dass world after some very dark, heavy experiences with a political cult which involved psychological torture. This experience stole any concept of God or spirituality because I was denied justice and pushed into silent suffering. In working through it, I found his lectures which are helping me return some pieces of myself that are just buried in the trauma of it all. Especially the helplessness of not being able to protect my children. So to keep this short, how do you heal the absence of the community in terms of releasing anger and grief? To fully embrace that idea of others silence being part of a greater unfolding? How do others transform that without simply saying it’s karma although on a deeper level I understand the awareness is the key issue. That lack of awareness of the implications of silence in our communities and in their own lives to preserve their own peace. I struggle with forgiving others for that and want very much to release it.
Much blessings and good will to you. We are always doing the best we can and you have recognized that anger and grief are related to each other. Finding a good therapist might be very helpful to sort out feelings and experiences. I find music and dancing, along with simple art activities to be helpful in getting my feelings out along with scribbling with crayons with both hands. Also drumming can get the anger out. You might be able to find a group with similar experiences for support. Much peace on your new path of freedom.
Thank you for your response. I do have a new counselor who is on medical leave and she suggested EMDR as did my psychiatrist but finding a reputable one has been challenging. Honestly, these podcasts have been extremely helpful although it would be hard to articulate simply here. The dancing idea sound really good as well as some of the art/ coloring. I will think on your suggestions!
On another note, I relate a lot to the karma and devotional yoga themes here as they help the most. Even if my belief system is not wired really for a solid concept of god, the processes seem to work form me. However, even in therapy, trauma focused methods or spirituality, the deepest wound is the lack of action or passivity of witnesses. That is to me like a black hole that takes all the healing away. I believe very strongly in intervening when we see harm being done and perhaps that is the a roadblock across the planet. If we are all one, connected then we don’t fear our own demise because we act in the benefit of the whole. So just wish there was an answer to this that settled it more.
Good for you!! You are definitely in the healing process and I can see you are moving forward. You might be able to find a good EMDR counselor online if they have a website where they list their certified therapists. Don’t know if you could to that on zoom or not. Am not that familiar with it. Enjoy the dancing and art if you choose that as it can give you joy and peace.
Thank you🙏